redefining momentum...
...the obligatory valentines day post.
In the past I've had a number of things to say on this the scheduled day of love. I will not gripe about "singleness awareness" or pool some deep spiritual experience of love. I will only relate a quick anecdote from my experiences thus far.
Throughout different parts of my life I have prayed the Lord would spare my life or tarry until I was ready. As a child it was until I got this toy or that toy, until I had made lot's of money, until I was married and had sex (which at 16 are the same thing to some Christian guys)and so on. I no longer ask the lord to tarry. It's not that that I've lived all I want to live and can't wait to go "home". It's something deeper.
I've spent much time worrying about time. Regardless of what I believe of sovereignty...I'm just not worried about MY plans any more. I've been in such a hurry, I've missed things along the way. It's good to have vision. Without it we perish; but if I only look to the future what of the details? And believe me He is in the details. And all the "big stuff" is just a ripple of those little decisions. There's a reason why "thy will be done" comes before "supply our daily needs" and why we are asked to seek first the kingdom of God.
Do I want to have a wife and be "successful" and prosperous? Absolutely. But even if I am not THERE IS A GOD and He is faithful. (Dan. 2:27-28, 3;17-18) I have looked and failed, I have missed the mark and waited on the future for comfort. I have mistaken ignorance for vision. And now with what humility God will sustain I move forward. At His pace, and by His grace.
j.
In the past I've had a number of things to say on this the scheduled day of love. I will not gripe about "singleness awareness" or pool some deep spiritual experience of love. I will only relate a quick anecdote from my experiences thus far.
Throughout different parts of my life I have prayed the Lord would spare my life or tarry until I was ready. As a child it was until I got this toy or that toy, until I had made lot's of money, until I was married and had sex (which at 16 are the same thing to some Christian guys)and so on. I no longer ask the lord to tarry. It's not that that I've lived all I want to live and can't wait to go "home". It's something deeper.
I've spent much time worrying about time. Regardless of what I believe of sovereignty...I'm just not worried about MY plans any more. I've been in such a hurry, I've missed things along the way. It's good to have vision. Without it we perish; but if I only look to the future what of the details? And believe me He is in the details. And all the "big stuff" is just a ripple of those little decisions. There's a reason why "thy will be done" comes before "supply our daily needs" and why we are asked to seek first the kingdom of God.
Do I want to have a wife and be "successful" and prosperous? Absolutely. But even if I am not THERE IS A GOD and He is faithful. (Dan. 2:27-28, 3;17-18) I have looked and failed, I have missed the mark and waited on the future for comfort. I have mistaken ignorance for vision. And now with what humility God will sustain I move forward. At His pace, and by His grace.
j.
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3:13 AM
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Just letting you know that I'm still checking on ya! Love you.
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