dealing with identity theft and freud...or is it frawd?
Sometimes I think seasons are no more a reality than hefalumps and woozels. Unless you live in the north east the idea of seasons doesn't live up to its fullness. There are times when I would like to think that there is only life, and seasons are meerly names we give to changing weather paterns.
Maybe i'm in a season of disliking seasons. I can't be sure. Of course if I decided to drop the ideal of this whole winter spring summer fall thing I would have to re-write many of my songs. I'd rather not.
Well than if there are seasons I am most certainly in a season of change. In a couple of weeks I will be done at Lee, I won't officially graduate until december but, I will finish the end of the month. Then it's up to potsdam for what may be my last long stay in the North Country. I'm not sure exactly why I felt led to go back, I know it won't be everything I remeber, I know I have set it up on a glorified pedastool in my mind, but that doesn't seem to matter much to me right now.
In the fall I will move to Boston where I tried to move in January of 2004 unbeknonwnst to most. I took a scouting trip with a Aussie mate of mine. It was an amazing excursion because I was able to see the city not through the eyes of a local but through the eyes of an aussie and everything is cooler with that pair of shades on. On the way home we even got to see the northern lights for the first time danceing over Clarkson University. I decided to stay.
Now I will likely be headed there in september for an internship at the contemporary music center. I will get to play songwriter for a semester. I am excited. I have started working on a book. By started I mean I have a notebook full of scrappy ideas from sermons, conversations, and expieriences. I hoping to start the actual organization process and writing this summer.
I used to wonder what to do with all the vision I had, what it would look like. I am not saying that I have it figured all out or anything, but the dots are getting easier to connect and a picture is starting to form. The most important thing I have learned is that vision is not about me, it's about HIM. I have a responsibility to be aggressive with my gifts but the vision thing is up to him. It is my job to make sure I am regularly coming along side it.
I suppose that song writing and authoring and creating your own music labe (I forgot to mention that) sounds pretty lofty and irresponsible, but it's what makes sense right now. My passion is to help people figure out who they are. In christ first and then in music or business. If I had to define my calling right now in one word it would be identity.
j.
Maybe i'm in a season of disliking seasons. I can't be sure. Of course if I decided to drop the ideal of this whole winter spring summer fall thing I would have to re-write many of my songs. I'd rather not.
Well than if there are seasons I am most certainly in a season of change. In a couple of weeks I will be done at Lee, I won't officially graduate until december but, I will finish the end of the month. Then it's up to potsdam for what may be my last long stay in the North Country. I'm not sure exactly why I felt led to go back, I know it won't be everything I remeber, I know I have set it up on a glorified pedastool in my mind, but that doesn't seem to matter much to me right now.
In the fall I will move to Boston where I tried to move in January of 2004 unbeknonwnst to most. I took a scouting trip with a Aussie mate of mine. It was an amazing excursion because I was able to see the city not through the eyes of a local but through the eyes of an aussie and everything is cooler with that pair of shades on. On the way home we even got to see the northern lights for the first time danceing over Clarkson University. I decided to stay.
Now I will likely be headed there in september for an internship at the contemporary music center. I will get to play songwriter for a semester. I am excited. I have started working on a book. By started I mean I have a notebook full of scrappy ideas from sermons, conversations, and expieriences. I hoping to start the actual organization process and writing this summer.
I used to wonder what to do with all the vision I had, what it would look like. I am not saying that I have it figured all out or anything, but the dots are getting easier to connect and a picture is starting to form. The most important thing I have learned is that vision is not about me, it's about HIM. I have a responsibility to be aggressive with my gifts but the vision thing is up to him. It is my job to make sure I am regularly coming along side it.
I suppose that song writing and authoring and creating your own music labe (I forgot to mention that) sounds pretty lofty and irresponsible, but it's what makes sense right now. My passion is to help people figure out who they are. In christ first and then in music or business. If I had to define my calling right now in one word it would be identity.
j.
posted by j. at
4:58 PM
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Dear Friend of Mine:
it is too late to call someone - it would go against etiquette even if I am not sure if you are really already in bed or not.
running into some scheduling issues and am wondering what the possibility is of you joining us in L.I. for the 1st weekend of May. I know you didn't think that you would be done till the 7th, but if you could even fly to NYC or L.I on the 6th or something than you could come back with us two days later.
What do you think?
The problem with waiting is that Alexis isn't available the only other weekend I am free in May and I really wanted to include her. And if we don't do it the first weekend of May than we are looking at waiting till June - which just gets super busy with graduations, class trips, other vacation plans, missions... on and on goes the list. (not that I am saying we won't take another trip at some point during the summer... you know me better than that.)
Let me know what you think. I know you said you had a gig or something...
anyways. sorry for everyone else who had to suffer through that. I don't have his email address. (good friend I am, huh?)
carina
That's really cool Jason, i wish you the best of luck in following his vision! The coolest part is you'll be home for a few months, yey! I hope the scheduling issues for the trip work out... it turns out my prom is on memorial day weekend, who schedules prom for memorial day weekend!?!(oops i think i had a part in that) anyway... see you soon!
-lexi
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