LISTEN UP
A letter to ruy guy
Ryan,
Lore says you ask about me sometimes, thanks for caring, I appreciate
it. The longer I'm here the greater my sense of disconnection from the
North Country is. It's good in some ways I suppose to realize there's
more to life than CFC, alot has changed since I left, I'm never quite
sure what I'll come back to.
I will always look back on those 18 months or so after I settled in
before I moved to rocheseter as some of the greatest times of my life.
The people, mentors, lessons learned, all helped shape who I am now
for the better.
Sometimes I feel like I was more of an adult then, even though I know
its not true, but it's easy to live up to your responsibilities when
your not really given a choice, or when your greatest responsibility
is taking out the trash on thursday mornings and being awake by seven
for family devotions.
The balance of school, ministry, and music is getting more and more
difficult to find, but I know that by this time next year I will be
weeks away from having that $48,000 piece of paper I could somedays
careless about. I am confident I will be good at whatever it is I end
up doing, I just feel like I have been working on this in my mind
years.
Evaluating my life these last few weeks, I realized areas of
immaturity that I have been ignoring, I have also been much more
sensitive to the spirit lately. Movies, music, and the people I spend
time with (foxes and distractions) are quickly become extremely
distasteful. Its nothing I decided I was going to do or told God I
wanted, It has just simply come from inside.
Not that I'm holier than thou or close to it's more about realizing
there's a higher call on my life and I can't just let things slide
anymore. Our pastors wife was speaking recently on how the things we
find comfort in that arn't God have to go, even if their expulsion is
drastic. I guess I have allowed myslelf to be comforted by other
things long enough.
Under notmal circumstances I wouldn't send such a long letter, but
whats one long letter among friends eh. I should be up next month and
you can tell me the joys of parenting and paternity and other areas in
which you have far exceede my experience.
Peace bro.
(annex its called listen up because the fist letter of each paragraph spells LISTEN UP)
j.
Ryan,
Lore says you ask about me sometimes, thanks for caring, I appreciate
it. The longer I'm here the greater my sense of disconnection from the
North Country is. It's good in some ways I suppose to realize there's
more to life than CFC, alot has changed since I left, I'm never quite
sure what I'll come back to.
I will always look back on those 18 months or so after I settled in
before I moved to rocheseter as some of the greatest times of my life.
The people, mentors, lessons learned, all helped shape who I am now
for the better.
Sometimes I feel like I was more of an adult then, even though I know
its not true, but it's easy to live up to your responsibilities when
your not really given a choice, or when your greatest responsibility
is taking out the trash on thursday mornings and being awake by seven
for family devotions.
The balance of school, ministry, and music is getting more and more
difficult to find, but I know that by this time next year I will be
weeks away from having that $48,000 piece of paper I could somedays
careless about. I am confident I will be good at whatever it is I end
up doing, I just feel like I have been working on this in my mind
years.
Evaluating my life these last few weeks, I realized areas of
immaturity that I have been ignoring, I have also been much more
sensitive to the spirit lately. Movies, music, and the people I spend
time with (foxes and distractions) are quickly become extremely
distasteful. Its nothing I decided I was going to do or told God I
wanted, It has just simply come from inside.
Not that I'm holier than thou or close to it's more about realizing
there's a higher call on my life and I can't just let things slide
anymore. Our pastors wife was speaking recently on how the things we
find comfort in that arn't God have to go, even if their expulsion is
drastic. I guess I have allowed myslelf to be comforted by other
things long enough.
Under notmal circumstances I wouldn't send such a long letter, but
whats one long letter among friends eh. I should be up next month and
you can tell me the joys of parenting and paternity and other areas in
which you have far exceede my experience.
Peace bro.
(annex its called listen up because the fist letter of each paragraph spells LISTEN UP)
j.
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4:33 PM
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