Continum 22

Without vision people tire, faint, perish.
With vison I tire and faint and become weary.

Life often feels like a continum of catch 22's
Like not having a car to save money but needing a car to get to work
Needing money to promote a CD so you can sell the CD to make more money.
Wanting to stay single because accepting one means rejecting others.
Knowing without commitment the "others" are nothing more than distractions
Avoiding love for fear of hurting someone or being hurt yet "paining" your singleness
Longing for maturity and wisdom that comes with age, begrudging time for its ware.
Life at 22 feals like a continum of catch 22's

Some strive to have vision
I struggle to fulfil it

There's a thorn in my side

My brother turns 30 today, some how I'v forgotton that I'm not the only one who ages. I expect people from home to be the same age as they were when I left 17 months ago. Is it normal to feal old at 22? Probably.
THERE'S A THORN IN MY SIDE

I have lived a lot of life so far, living in seven states and having four times as many jobs. My vocation at current full time communication student and aspiring singer songwriter. I often teeter as to which one is my back up plan.
THERE'S A THORN IN MY SIDE

I am normal and extrodinary and sometimes extrodinarily normal. I try hard to be there for other people and help them and make wise choices. I strive be a good listener and give good advice when necessary. I will let you down, at some point I will dissapoint you.
THERE"S A THORN IN MY SIDE

I fight for attention, I need affection, I am flawed. I am becoming holy. Sometimes I get frustrated with how much work it takes to be responsible, to live up to the standard I have set for my self and that my faith has set for me.
THERE'S A THORN IN MY SIDE

I am a good writer and a decent musician. I speak in public well and have the blessed flaw of B.S. Usually I'm pretty witty, sometimes not so much, often I recover quickly or just go silent.
THERE'S A THORN IN MY SIDE

I like girls and can be easily distracted by them espically if they are musical and have an inclination toward photography. It took me a long time to realize I have a type and even longer to be ok with that.
THERE'S A THORN IN MY SIDE

If I believed in luck, which I sometimes do, I would say it comes in extremes for me. Some people steal my car, others offer to shoot a free music video or write an article about me in the paper.
THERE'S A THORN IN MY SIDE

At 22 I feel old, I have ice skated on highways, traveled the world, jumped from high ledges into deep pools, and written a song or story on just about everything.
I am trained to be a minister, anointed to be a leader, gifted in creation, and humbled by my humanity.
THERE'S A THORN IN MY SIDE; MYSELF